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I haven't done much as well. My japanese exam is near, I'm panicking of course, there is no other way to deal with an exam than panicking about it. But at least I'm studying for it, I really am.
What else, oh yeah, we're doing a Christmas' Carol (I just hope that's the correct term but I have no intention to look it up) so I'm staying late some days and I'm going nuts already, I hate going late home because I don't have enough time to do my homeworks. I hate finishing them until 9:00 pm.
What else? I bought a couple movies last weekend, special 2x1 offer. I've seen one and is so, so very sad. The other one I haven't got the time to watch it yet.
I want holidays.
I want to go to GDL, or Michoacán... even Toluca would do, I just want to go out, I thought on GDL because I liked the town, I want to go to shopping again... and also because last year we went to Michoacán, so I don't miss it that much.
I'm ranting.
That's not good.
I'm hungry, I need to eat something.
- Location:school of course
- Mood:
bored - Music:English literature class
HBP is already in cinemas and I want to go... however, I think I'll wait for a week, because now it will be chaos, with all the crazy fans wanting to go and all.
I have no idea what to write here, my brain seem to be dead. I have lots of homework to do, but that's not news anymore.
One of my teachers wrote a book of short stories and I finally bought a copy, they are all so nice and the endings are really great, not at all something you expect. I liked it a lot ^^
What else? I need to finish my semantics final paper. A presentation, another presentation... another paper... goodness.
Thank God is Friday, so I should go and do some homework, so that I don't have to do it on Sunday.
That's it, I know, I'm not being coherent now.
I don't care really, it's the end of the week, I can't force my brain to function.
- Location:...
- Mood:
blank - Music:"Du är ånga" Kent
I feel I live in an anime of some sorts, or in a very bad japanese drama.
I'm nuts. Ok, moving on.
I have a translation to make, French-Spanish... and I just got stressed by all this weird legal terms that I don't understand.
I also need to make a presentation about "art" in French (any art... no matter what... I'm dead, I can't think. I was thinking making it about the art of writting "kanjis" or gothic/vampiric art... I'll keep thinking, thank God it's for Friday, so I have a couple days.)
And that's it, it's pretty relax right now.
I'm enjoying so much my Belly dancing classes ^^. It's the first time I've lernt how to dance anything, so I'm quite happy. I have a veil and everything (I keep murdering myself with it though... it keeps on choking me. I need practice.)
What else?
I saw "Amèlie" and I loved it. I saw "Howl's moving castle" in French, and I adored it (Howl sounds so very sexy... oh boy.)
And... I've been doing things that no one should know, on the risk of looking like a very crazy woman.
And something weird happened. Something that I thought it would never happen to me... I'll tell later, I want to keep it a secret for a while, at least, just until I figure something out.
That's it, that's my life.
And I have... what's the word?
I have no desire to put this in Spanish, I'm a bit tired and my Spanish grammar doesn't seem to be working very good today.
Be happy people.
- Location:home
- Mood: no idea...
- Music:"Once upon a dream" Sleeping Beauty OST
I've had lots of homework. Phonetic transcriptions, translations... languages.
I passed French ^^, some classmates didn't. I'm sorry for them, but I'm qutie happy as well. I don't have to wait for them anymore.
I'll still go to German for a while, I don't know how long but well.
I have to read something, before I forget.
I finished "Blood canticle". It was really good, and I'm oficially over with the vampire chronicles. At last. After 6 years, when I first read "Interview with the vampire", I'm done. Boy.
And now I'm reading "The teachings of Don Juan: A yaqui way of knowledge" by Carlos Castaneda. It's so very great. I love it.
What else?
Nah... that's it. I have nothing to tell. I've been reading Death Note finally, I watched a couple episodes yesterday. It's great, I love Light, and L... and Ryuk eventually. Now I want to know what's gonna happen with the 2 Kiras... I think I'll go watch some anime now.
*runs to turn on the dvd*
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Ya casi acabo con mi cuarto. He traido todo de nuevo y he estado limpiando cada uno de mis cajones. Ahora, los únicos que me faltan son los del clóset. Ese es el aterrador, hay tantas cosas ahí.
Tengo mucha tarea, transcripciones fonéticas, traducciones... idiomas.
Pasé francés ^^, algunas compañeras no... me da lástima por ella, pero estoy feliz al mismo timepo, al menos no las tengo que seguir esperando.
Aún iré a alemán por un rato, no se por cuanto pero bueno.
Tengo que leer algo, antes de que lo olvide.
Terminé "Cantico de sangre" y está genial. Ya por fin acabé con las crónicas de vampiros, desde hace 6 años que empecé con "Entrevista con el vampiro", por fin acabé. Vaya.
Y ahora estoy leyendo "Las enseñanzas de Don Juan" de Carlos Castaneda. Está muy bien la verdad, me encanta.
¿Qué más?
Nah... eso es todo, nada más que contar. He estado leyendo Death Note, y vi unos episodios ayer. Es tan genial, amo a Light, a L... y a Ryuk naturalmente. Ahora quiero saber que va a pasar con los dos Kira. Creo que iré a ver un poco de anime.
*corre a prender el dvd*
- Location:home
- Mood:
chipper - Music:"Welcome to tijuana" Manu Chau
I had my French oral today, I think it was good... however, I can't seem to be able to conjugate properly.
Maybe it's because I don't do it in English or in Japanese... I've gotten used not to do it.
Damn
But at least, my teacher told me that I had an almost perfect pronunciation, so that's one thing less I have to worry about.
And, my friends want me to do chinese food for them ^^, so we'll go to a friend's house.
I'll put them to work as well.
I need to remember that I have to do a translation...
That's it.
As I said.
My life.
Nothing interesting...
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Tengo exámenes mañana, creo que ya me estoy empezando a acostumbrar.
Tuve mi examen oral de francés hoy, creo que estuvo bien... sin embargo, no soy capaz de conjugar decentemente.
Tal vez sea porque no lo hago en inglés, ni en japonés... ya me acostumbré a no hacerlo.
Demonios.
Pero al menos, mi maestra me dijo que tengo una pronunciación casi perfecta, así que es una cosa menos de la cual preocuparme.
Y, mis amigos quieren que les haga comida china ^^, así que iremos a la casa de una amiga.
Los pondré a trabajar también.
Y tengo que acordarme de hacer una traducción...
Eso es todo.
Como dije.
Mi vida.
Nada interesante...
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J'ai mes examens demain, je crois que je commence à m'habbituer.
J'ai eu mon examen oral de français aujourd'hui, je croi qu'il a été bien... cependant, je ne suis pas capable de conjuguer décemment.
Peut être c'est parce que je ne le fait pas en anglais, ou en japonais... j'ai pris l'habittude de ne le pas faire.
Merde.
Mais, au moins, ma professeur m'a dit que j'ai une prononciation presque parfait, donc c'est une chose moins pour laquelle je ne doit pas me preocuper.
Et, mes amis veulent que je les fait de la nourriture chinoise ^^, alors on ira chez un amie.
Je vais les faire travailler aussi.
Et je doit rappeler que je doit faire une traduction...
C'est tout.
Comme j'ai dit.
Ma vie.
Rien intéressant...
- Location:casa
- Music:"Cross my heart" Rocket Summer
Maybe is just me, I'm really tired right now, I'm having very bad mood swings lately and it's probably due to stress and lack of holidays for 8 months.
The quarter system really sucks.
I'm not even sure if I'm angry or just fricking annoyed. Probably the latest anyway.
I love my friends and family, I really do, and I know I sound harsh some times (specially when I'm sick of everything), but I just wonder if they see that they can hurt sometimes, that they can be... what's the word? Sufocating sometimes.
There are certain attitudes everybody can cope with, because you know people are who they are and you can't change them, but with time, there are also certain attitudes that become bloody constant and they are annoying, rude...
And most of the time, people don't even know they are doing it. They think they're not rude or impolite. They are just being themselves.
Usually that's part of the problem.
(I'd like to state something really clear. I'm not a saint myself. I have my attitudes as well, sometimes I can't control them, but I've been trying lately, because I've learnt that I can't blow up with the people that love me. But is a long road, and I'm not there yet)
I have reasons and also the right to get angry and snipe at someone, I'm human!
I'm not saying it's all right, 'coz is not really. But can't they see that they are also not very nice sometimes?
Can't they see that the actions they do can be misinterpret?
Do they know they're rude?
Can they even acknowledge that maybe they did something to set me off in a bad moment?
I don't like to call names, so I won't. I'm not even sure they read this anymore. They don't seem to.
I'm sure, if that person reads this still, she'll know I'm talking about her, and she might even blame it on me, saying I'm also being rude, that I'm being distant or that I'm disapointing her because I'm reading things that aren't true.
Well, I'm sorry, but you're causing me to think that.
I can't keep holding this anymore, hoping that you'll change. Maybe you actually suffer from something, maybe is not your fault. But you can't blame it on something else forever.
I'm annoyed.
I'm not someone's dog to be there when they snap their fingers. I'm not there at the hour they need me to be there because I have things to do. If they want to think I'm lying to avoid them, fine by me. But I'm sick that things are always on their rules, their time and when they fucking want to.
Two can play a game, and I'm also tired to be the one who always listens, I know I'm a good listener, people tell me that often. But they never listen to me, or they just say... "oh yeah, how nice..."
Sometimes my life is just about school. My frustrations or joys are about school, and I'm sorry if they don't want to listen about it, or if they don't want to hear it because they get depressed. But is the only life I have right now, school, that's all I talk mostly. I don't work and I usually don't have other problems.
I just need to talk, even if I get a loved one upset (yet again, because lately, all we've been doing is fighting), but maybe this is the only way to work out things.
We are going downhills, eventually we'll hit bottom.
And then, we can only go up.
That is, if we keep on talking and saying things open to each other.
Because seriously, if we keep up like this we might get to a point of no return.
And I don't want that, as angry or upset I might be I don't want a good relationship to end just because of a stupid fight.
If you want to say what annoys you about me say it, don't expect me to just accept it quietly, but say it. I want to say things to you too, and they might be things that other people have told you, things that have made you angry before because you keep saying they're not true.
But, that many people can't be wrong. Maybe, maybe, there is a tiny bit that is true.
We need to talk, really talk.
But I'm also tired to be the one that has to make the phone call all the time. I'm tired of excuses, even if they are true.
You can't expect me to do everything always.
I'm sorry, I needed to take this out of my system.
I'm stressed out, tired and somehow sad too.
I need holidays.
( ESPAÑOL )
- Location:trying to cope with everything...
- Mood: ...
- Music:Screams in my head.
Ich möchte schlafen. Ich hatte Hunger, aber esse ich Keks ^^.
And that's as far as I dare go, I can actually write a bit more, but with a lot of mistakes due to declinations.
So...
Thank God is Friday ^^, I still have to do some homework but well, I'll do it later.
I've finished the "Wizard of Oz". All the 4 books. They're so sweet and nice. I love them.
I'm done with "The Historian" too, although I don't remember if I put it here.
And now, finally, after so many months... I'm half way through "Lasher".
And, as usual with Anne Rice's books, the good stuff begins half way trough, all the beginning tends to be just... nonsene and things that you honestly do not need to now.
Anyway.
I'm going.
I have nothing to say really, I'm just idle.
- Location:in my bed
- Mood:
ditzy - Music:The little Mermaid OST
(Maybe I'm exagerating, I don't hate it, just the grammar... and orthography...)
I have new teacher now, she's French, but she's very nice to us. She doesn't yell that much.
She told us to write up our projects for the future for tomorrow.
And that she wanted a well structured paper, not something from basic level.
Although we're still pretty basic, not that much... but well... we're not perfect yet.
So... I need to think this over, because I wrote up something and only turned to be about 10 lines long.
Too short.
I need to make it longer and more descriptive.
Or she's gonna murder me.
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Tengo que escribir en Francés... ¿ya he mencionado cuando odio el Francés en estos momentos?
(Okey, tal vez esté exagerando, no lo odio, sólo la gramática... y la ortografía...)
Tengo una maestra nueva ahora, es francesa, pero es muy amable con nosotros. Y no grita tanto.
Nos dijo que escribieramos nuestros proyectos a futuro para mañana.
Y que quería un papel bien estructurado, no algo de básico.
Aunque aún estamos un poco bajos, no tanto... pero bueno... todavía no somos perfectos.
Así que... necesito pensarmelo, porque escribí algo y resultó ser de unas 10 líneas.
Demasiado corto.
Tengo que hacer algo más largo y más descriptivo.
O me va a matar.
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Je doit écrire en francais... J'avais dit déjà que je déteste beaucoup le francais maintenant?
(Je suis exagerée, je ne le deteste pas, seulement la grammaire... et l'ortographe...)
J'ai une nouvelle proffeseur maintenant, elle est francaise, mais elle est très aimable avec nous. Et elle ne crie pas beaucoup.
Elle nous a dit qu'on doit faire un écrit avec nos projets pour le futur, pour demain.
Et elle veut un papier bien structure, pas de niveaux basique.
Bien que nous sommes d'un niveau basique encore, bon pas beaucoup... mais... nous ne sommes pas parfaits encore.
Donc... je doit penser bien, parce que j'ai écrit quelque chose, mais sulement de 10 lignes.
Très court.
Je doit faire quelque chose plus longue... et descriptif.
Ou elle va me tue.
- Location:in my brain, sorting out languages
- Mood:
can't think... - Music:"Señor Juez" Ricardo Arjona
I miss it.
I wish I could be there just one more time. Go back in time.
I want to get on a bus and go to the city centre of Cambridge, roam through the streets, do some window shopping, go into the bookstore, drink some coffee with a friend, walk in the park, go to the market and buy stuff to cook it.
Go to the train station, see the people around, sit on a bench while waiting for the train to London. Hear my iPod while I look out the window, seeing the little houses and the lack of mountains...
Go to the British museum, or to my comic store, go to Virgin and buy CD's, walkd down Oxford street, see Picadilly square or the Tower of London, stare at the Big Ben for hours with a delicious ice cream.
Even go to the tube and hear "mind the gap"...
I miss it.
I really do.
I used to feel so good over there, I know I'm supposed to be there. I mean, I love being mexican and all, but I feel England is my home. And I know is difficult to get there and stay for good, but I'll do everything in my power to do so.
Because I really believe that's where I'm supposed to be.
Have a nice day.
- Location:inside my memories
- Mood:
nostalgic - Music:"Sweetness and Light" Lush
Probably not.
I don't intend to sound profound or anything, I'm being blunt (is that the word...?). I realy can't stay awake, my eyes keep closing and that's not good.
I need to sleep a whole winter, sadly it's spring already. Well past it actually.
I wonder how I get everything done.
How I keep French, German and Japanese in my head?
How I manage to pick up new stuff from my new courses without forgetting the previous ones?
How is it that my body keeps working properly while doing homework or reading a book for school, while it shuts down when I can read for leisure?
How I get all the homework done correctly, but I can't seem to write sanely (is that even a word?) in the computer?
How I haven't fallen asleep in school?
I do have lots of questions, most of them don't seem to have any answer. I know this is just the normal drill from a university life. Studying all afternoon, having few free time, practicaly no social life (specialy during exams). Thing is... even though everybody goes through this... no one seems to hate it that much.
Sure, we complain. I always complain... and I'm not even doing Translations yet.
Wonderfully enough, our bodies keep on working normally, trying to keep up the rythm until the end of the week. In my case until Saturday.
It is amazing.
I don't know how the brain works (I would sure love to), but I'm convinced is the best organ ever. Holds so much information without pouring out of someone elses ears.
And... yes, I find fascinating that it can hold 5 languages with almos no problem at all (bit of interference every now and then, nothing worrying).
I'm ranting.
I don't even know what I'm saying.
Thus proving that I need to sleep...
- Location:en la casa de la muerte...
- Mood: WTF!?
- Music:"You are my world" the communards
German was good, this 1-D I got a 89, because I have troubles with the verbs in perfect. I can't learn them all yet.
I will.
And French, I got a bit stupid in the oral part. And the listening one was chaos, so I got 85.
Everyone has ups and downs. I'll do better next time.
I'll study harder.
Tomorrow is the last day of the quarter. I'll receive my last grade and on monday I'll start the third quarter.
Gosh. Time just keeps flying, if feels like just yesterday I started my carreer. And now, 4 more months and I'll complete my first year.
I'm starting to believe that this is gonna just fly by.
Tomorrow I'll be doing my first translations.
Day after tomorrow I'll be doing my thesis.
And next week I'll be graduating and looking for a job.
Gosh!
Can someone slow down time... please?
- Location:limbo...
- Mood:
thinking hard... - Music:"Walking in the air" Chloe
I don't know what to write.
I can't concentrate.
This is supposed to be my day off.
This is what happens when you leave homework for the last day.
Bl**dy hell.
I should try and hurry.
If I finish early, I could enjoy the rest of the day.
Bl**dy homework.
Argh...
- Location:in desperation...
- Mood: blank
- Music:"Dancing through life" Wicked OST
I'm gonna kill someone.
A she.
To be more accurate... my new german teacher.
ARGH!
I know people have their own accent when talking. I have mine... which is a weird one... nevertheless.
She doesn't know how to pronunciate words correctly. So far, I've heard 3 mistakes. And all her "t's" are very weird too... but if I count those... I would never finish.
She is a good teacher though. Her class is okay, the grammar is good... but the pronunciation.
ARGH!
If there's one thing that gets on my nerves is bad pronunciation. I just can't stand it. And my coordinator seems to think I'm paranoid...
As I said...
I'm gonna murder her.
Just that, needed to get it out of my system.
- Location:ARGH!
- Mood:
bitchy - Music:"Hey there Delila" Simple White T's
I went today to "San Jerónimo" to do some ice skating for the first time in my life. My cousin knows how to do it so I figured I'd give it a try.
It was so much fun. Is not that hard actually (just when you gain speed... because I couldn't figure how to stop). If you had done some skating with normal skates you should be fine ^^.
Anyway... I was so scared at the begining. I thought I would fall down or something, and so I was very slow, trying to grasp the concept of moving my feet without loosing my own balance (and trying to avoid the other skaters...)
And in about thirty minutes I could go a bit faster, I could skate a bit better and I enjoyed myself so much ^^.
My cousin even helped me out to go faster every now and then, he would hold my hand and start gaining speed with me behind him...
I only fell once, and because I was holding my balance until a boy came behind me and made me loose control, I tried to grab him but I fell XD.
No big deal though. My wrist hurts a little, but I'll be fine tomorrow.
I want to do it again!
(I'm extremely happy ^^, I never thought I would do it so quickly, I figured it would be harder).
One more thing I can cross out of my list of "Things to do before I die"
Have a wonderful weekend people.
(I know I will, I have a party tomorrow ^^).
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Me encantó ^^.
Hoy fui a patinar a San Jerónimo por primera vez en mi vida. Mi primo sabe cómo, así que pensé en intentarlo.
Fue tan divertido, no es tan difícil (solo cuando agarran velocidad... porque no podía adivinar cómo pararme). Pero si han patinado en línea con patines normales no hay problema ^^.
Bueno... estaba aterrada al inicio. Pensé que me iba a caer o algo así que iba muy lento, tratando de agarrarle la onda a cómo mover los pies sin perder el equilibrio (y tratando de evitar a los otros patinadores...) Y en unos treinta minutos ya podía ir más rápido, podía patinar un poco mejor y me divertí como loca ^^.
Incluso, mi primo me ayudó a ir un poco más rápido de vez en cuando, me agarraba de la mano y empezaba a ganar velocidad conmigo ahí detrás...
Sólo me caí una vez, y eso porque ya estaba recuperando el equilibrio cuando un chico me apareció por atrás y me desconcentró, traté de agarrarlo pero me caí XD.
Nada serio. Mi muñeca me duele un poco, pero estaré bien mañana.
¡Quiero hacerlo otra vez!
(Estoy sumamente feliz ^^, nunca pensé que podría hacerlo tan rápido, pensé que sería más difícil).
Una cosa más que puedo tachar de mi lista "Cosas que hacer antes de morir".
Tengan un excelente fin de semana.
(Sé que yo lo tendré, tengo fiesta mañana ^^).
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NOTA AGREGADA:
Esta porquería me la borró. No voy a poner todo otra vez. Sólo lo básico.
Estaba viendo las noticias hace rato, estaban entrevistando al Decano de Catedral.
Pero abajo, apareció "Dean de Catedral" y la reportera repitió la dichosa palabra.
¿Alguien puede decirme que está mal?
...
La palabra "Dean" no existe en español, es una palabra del inglés y no debería estar metida en las noticias, mucho menos si existe la palabra "Decano".
Sólo necesitan saber que casi me infarto (sí, como estudiante de Idioma, ya me molestan ésas cosas).
El caso es, que acabo de mandar un correo electrónico a Televisa.
Porque esto no tiene que pasar.
Mucho menos si se supone que son profesionales.
Si los demás países defienden su idioma a capa y espada ¿por qué ch-ng-d-s nosotros dejamos que nos metan extranjerismos por todos lados sin quejarnos?
Idiotas.
Y luego por qué me dan ganas de matarlos.
- Location:In my own happy place
- Mood:
againagainagain... - Music:"Pushing me away" Linkin Park
Don't get excited, it's nothing... normal contest. I have the story already and I just need to send it.
But... sometimes I wonder what if I had gotten into a different career?
(Yes, I'm going to rant again... you can run)
There are days in which I amaze myself at the things I can come up with to make a story.
Somedays I wonderf if I actually wrote that or that because I simply can't remember, as if I was on a differente state of mind at the time.
I don't know. Sometimes I wish I were studying Literature.
But then I think again that Languages is the best thing in the world... that I wouldn't change it for anything.
And I keep coming and going... maybe I'm going insane...
And today we went to the IPN's Planetarium, we saw "Stars of the pharaos" and "Black holes" it was great and you should go if you can.
Anyway, I saw in a window "Diploma course in Astronomy" (for those of you who don't live in Mexico I should explain that Diploma courses are offered by mexican universities, you take them for various months. They aren't part of a career, they're more to have updates or to specialize in certain topics, and you don't get a title for it, just a diploma)
Anyway, I thought that was really great... and then I realized that I could do that with writing. Instead of looking for a career, I could take Diploma courses.
Also with History (I still like it... I still want to study it, but not the whole).
I'll stop ranting now... I'll translate tomorrow.
- Location:in my brain... thinking.
- Mood:
pensive - Music:"Mojado" Ricardo Arjona
I've been doing something of Grammar I'm not sure it's correct... (bl**dy language). And I've been writing something, but I'm to tired to think straight so I've stopped. Otherwise, I'm gonna make something stupid.
I had French exam yesterday, and another one today. Both oral. It wasn't so bad really, just some pronunciation issues.
Tomorrow is the writting part, that scares the hell out of me. Mostly because I have ortographic problems (keep missing "e", sometimes conjugated verbs are wrong, and articles...). So I just hope I'll pass tomorrow, I know I'm not that bad... but I could make something moronic.
There's also German test tomorrow. I'm also scared, but that doesn't worries me so much, anyway, no one else know better German than I do, so... no problem there ^^.
Last saturday I went bowling with my japanese group (teacher included).
It was so much fun! Last time I did it was when I was about... 14, with my family. So I really enjoyed myself. I made 1 strike (or however it's called) and well... I would love to do it again.
('coz the original plan was to go ice skating, but the skating rink was closed because there was a championship of hockey... and we ended up bowling instead).
That's pretty much it.
I'm too tired to keep on writing...
And I still have to make my German presentation (God knows how, 'coz I don't know anything...)
Good night.
Sleep tight.
Don't let the bed bugs bite ^^.
( ESPAÑOL )
- Location:en los brazos de Morfeo
- Mood:
not here anymore - Music:"Foundations" Kate Nash
Pourquoi j'ai fait ça? Je ne comprend pas... Merde... (3)
Okay, I'l stop swearing in another laguange... it's obviously going nowhere.
So... I did a very stupid thing last friday. I had this French homework about completing something, and I just read the instructions quickly and did it how I wanted.
Eventually I didn't notice that the answers had numbers according to a drawing... I actually ignored the drawing.
Today I got my homework back and I almost had a stroke right in the classroom.
All the answers were gramatically correct, but they didn't corresponde to the numbers.
And I got everything wrong because of that.
I'm an idiot...
I'm terribly frustrated because I don't tend to do this kind of things.
But then... not everyone is perfect, we all have our bad days an we become idiots.
It's so not funny.
I got a bit down I must admit, because well... I know this is not me, but I've been tired so lately that I'm afraid I haven't been paying attention at a 100%.
That would explain a lot really.
I guess I just need to sleep a bit earlier for a couple days.
At least I know one thing.
THIS WILL NEVER HAPPEN TO ME AGAIN.
I'll read everything more carefully now, I know.
"The trick is not to fall down, but to know how to get up".
Life must go on...
And yes, I know I must look like a psycho... I don't expecto you to understand this crisis... I don't think I understand it myself...
( ESPAÑOL )
Translations:
(1) I'm a real idiot / Soy una verdadera bestia.
(2) Bad / Mal
(3) Why did I do that? I don't understand... Damn... / ¿Por qué hize eso? No lo entiendo... Maldición.
- Location:ARGHHHHHHH
- Mood:
angry - Music:Más gritos desesperados...
Grrrr...
Okay, maybe I should explain this further. I decided to clean up my room (not all of it, just a part). And I thought... I'll start by getting rid of my dolls.
So I put them down and I started getting them in their original boxes (the ones who actually had one), and the others in a big box, so that I put them in the highest part of my closet.
It took me all morning and part of the afternoon (too many dolls).
And now my rooms looks more empty, which means more space for books ^^.
Je suis fatiguée...
This is why I hate cleaning...
Worst part is that I still have the rest of the room to go.
Merde...
( ESPAÑOL )
- Location:en el piso... muerta.
- Mood:
très fatiguée - Music:"Kaze ni naritai" D.N. Angel OST
It's normal I know... yet it's frustrating.
Because... I'm starting to write music with k (as in german...) or I simply forget a word in spanish but I do know the meaning in french. Or I want to construct sentences in german with my head thinking in french before realizing I need to think more in english...
(Example: In spanish and french when you want to say your age, you use the verb "have" "Tengo 21 años", "J'ai 21 ans"... in english you use the verb "to be" "I'm 21 years old". Well, I was supposed to make the sentence in german... and I was like... "I don't know the verb "have" how am I suppose to construct this" and I kept thinking and thinking and I was just about to ask the teacher the verb "have" when, suddenly, it strucked me that the construction was like english instead of french, and that I had to use "to be" "Ich bin 21 Jahre alt"... I wanted to bang my head against the wall..." And yes, I'm aware that probably none of you see the problem here, you may even think I'm insane... but normaly, this kind of existencial crisis are only understandable by people with the same career as you, or doing the same stuff as you... is like me trying to understand the beauty in maths... it's simply impossible, I won't even see a problem with solving problems... and most of you won't see my trauma here... and if you do see it... (I mean, the problem is obvious, I'm confusing one language with another, but the problem goes deep into gramatical structures) then you probably understand why I keep complaining about languages... and yet, why I keep studying them...)
I don't know what I'm saying anymore.
Is just things that I need to get out of my system. I know it sounds as if I've gone insane... maybe some of you are thinking "well, then stop thinking in french", but is not that easy... the brain has a whole different process than the one my will has.
So people, if you want to learn languages... don't, under any circumstances, learn more than 2 at the same time.
And yes, I can hear some of you saying "Oh but you do it..." Let me explain that.
There's people that have a gift for maths.
There're others who have a gift for drawing.
Others have a talent for writing (I'll include myself in that one, even when, sometimes, I can't write a single word...)
But... there are also people like us... who have a gift for languages.
Is not just like "Oh if you know english you can translate" That is not true. Behind translation there's a theory that goes beyond knowing the language.
You need Linguistics, Grammar, Semiotics, Writting, Theory of Translation... lots of things besides the language.
And a hell of a dictionary.
Point is... some people can't learn a language, not everybody can. There's people who will never speak english because their brains don't process it.
There are other who will learn it on a basic level, but they won't go any further...
And there's the freaks like us who learn even the stuff we don't need to know... like ancient english, and "knigth talk"...
I can learn 3 languages at the same time because my brain actually process them. Yes, I get confused, that's normal, perfectly normal actually. If I'm learning french my brain will remember spanish. If I start german my mind will remember french because is the last language registered on it... it's a process.
But I still get both correct. I'll even get japanese right...
But... if I didn't have the ability... I wouldn't, because my brain will explode or something...
I don't know what I'm saying anymore.
I'm ranting...
(Also... I've understood that I can't change anyone. It's in human nature to keep trying to fix others, but the thing is that no one can, and it's really tiring to do it becuse it's a lost battle since the begining. So, instead of trying to fix someone to my ideas of "good" I've decided to accept all that comes as it is, and just try to keep quiet if I don't agree with something, because in the end, is not my life... I can't keep telling people what to do with their lifes because I won't live the consequences either.
Is not that I haven't realized this before... is just that I still had some hopes on changing the world... but I keep getting dissapointments because nothing happens as I hoped they did... and it's worthless.
Life is too short to bother with this stuff. Life should be about enjoying. About letting different thoughts run wild, embrace them, understand them and, eventually, if we agree go along and if we don't... let them go)
I'm too tired to translate all this...
But I should... because if I don't my cat won't be able to read this...
Maybe she will... maybe she won't...
And any way... I want her to know what I say... keeping secrets is bad.
Is not good for the soul.
( ESPAÑOL )
Ok... I think I've corrected all the mistakes... but I don't promise anything...
Okey... creo que he corregido todos los errores... pero no prometo nada...
- Location:los desvaríos de mi mente.
- Mood: ... dead
- Music:"Kimi to deatte kara" Atsushi Miyazawa
OMG!
Bl**dy German. I knew it would be kinda hard.
But this is ridiculous.
One thing is to have complicated pronunciations, I have no problem with that (after all the nasal stuff...)
But that the sound doesn't even exist...
Grrr...
I've been fighting two classes with it and I still don't get it right. It'll probably take a while, but this is ridiculous.
Also, sometimes, when I'm speaking... I have the feeling that I don't understand a word I'm saying. Because in English I already know that I means "yo" and in Japanese Watashi has also the same connotation. Even in French I've grown use to the Je... but every time I start Ich... I feel I'm speaking mandarin instead of German.
I have no idea what I'm asking or saying. I takes me a while to even process what the teacher just asked us.
It's getting on my nerves. And I know this will be solved with time... but I've never had this problem with any other language (and yes, I know that with French is hard to get that problem because the language seems like spanish sometimes... is not so weird... and I know that with Japanese it took me about a year to get used to it... but I don't know... maybe is just that my humour hasn't been in its best... I'll give it some time).
Okey I just needed to get this out of my system
And no, I'm not translating. Go get a dictionary, my hands are numb. It's fr*ck*ng cold in here.
- Location:argh... $&/$#"@!
- Mood: argh
- Music:the silence of my swearing
