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I also got a movie called "Wasabi" I've seen it many times but I could never get the money to buy it... until now.
What else?
I had to read "Memoires of a dutiful daugther" for my semantics final paper, I'm supposed to make a comparative study between the french version and the spanish one, to see it the translation was ok, what kind of phenomena happended in the process and all that. The book was ok, but is not my kind of book really.
And I think that's it, my life is not particularly interesting now. I'll go see "Star Trek" tomorrow with some friends so that should be good ^^.
And I want... no. I demand holidays.
That's it, don't mind me, I'm insane.
- Location:home
- Mood:
awake - Music:"Konayuki" 1 litre of tears OST
Sometimes, I really, really hate school, but well.
I haven't written anything here, not much time to do so really. I've had lots of French homework (writings usually... they make my head hurt). Translations to make... and to remake and then hand in.
A presentation for English history... that I haven't done yet.
And... just my normal craziness. We decided to paint the bedrooms and change the rugs, so this weekend it was an utter chaos everywhere. I couldn't even see my living room because all the furniture was out.
It was horrible, it makes me wish I had magical powers...
Anyway, My furniture is back, my wall is painted and it looks nice and decent again (no more cracks around!) and my rug now is oficially over. I have a semi-wooden floor now. So it should be cleaner this time (you can't imagine the amount of dust a rug can accumulate over the years...).
But I still need to get all my stuff back. All my figurines, papers, trash... (I already got the books and DVD's back where they belong, and I've been throwing away everything that I don't need).
Oh boy...
I'm so sleepy. I'm just so glad I have no classes on monday.
- Location:home
- Mood:
tired - Music:absolute silence...
I liked not having homeworks, and not having to get up early in the mornings... sadly it's over.
However, even though I was supposed to start the 25th, I skiped 3 days of school, I was in NY with my family, two uncles and one aunt ^^. It was so much fun I want to do it again ^^.
And I bought so many books (the only thing I bought actually, I ran out of money and I'm broke yet again).
This is the list:
-Maskerade - Terry Pratchett.
-Son of a witch - Gregory Mcguire.
-Painless grammar - Rebecca Elliot.
-Loveless 4, 5 and 6.
-Until the full moon 1.
-Vampire Knight 1.
-Kuru neko (in japanese).
-Nihon monogatari 1 and 2 (in japanese as well).
-Le chat chapeauté - Dr. Seuss (in french ^^).
-Le Talisman écarlate - Marion Zimmer Bradley (also in french).
That's it ^^.
I didn't know I could find french books in NY, so it was quite a surprise ^^, I already read the one by Dr. Seuss and it's just lovely (I love Dr. Seuss ^^).
And the ones in japanese... well, let's just say I can read them since I know how to read hiragana and the kanjis have the little hiragana on the side... but I have no idea what they say. There's hundreds of words I don't even know.
But I figured, I need to start reading in japanese... so that's why I bought them.
The one of "Kuru neko" is a manga, that one I understand, it's simple ^^, and so funny.
And well... I started classes on Thursday, I already have lots of homework and a presentation to make in french for monday.
And a translation due on friday...
So many thing to do...
Have a nice weekend.
( ESPAÑOL )
- Location:casita
- Mood:
doing homework - Music:silencio absoluto...
Maybe is just me, I'm really tired right now, I'm having very bad mood swings lately and it's probably due to stress and lack of holidays for 8 months.
The quarter system really sucks.
I'm not even sure if I'm angry or just fricking annoyed. Probably the latest anyway.
I love my friends and family, I really do, and I know I sound harsh some times (specially when I'm sick of everything), but I just wonder if they see that they can hurt sometimes, that they can be... what's the word? Sufocating sometimes.
There are certain attitudes everybody can cope with, because you know people are who they are and you can't change them, but with time, there are also certain attitudes that become bloody constant and they are annoying, rude...
And most of the time, people don't even know they are doing it. They think they're not rude or impolite. They are just being themselves.
Usually that's part of the problem.
(I'd like to state something really clear. I'm not a saint myself. I have my attitudes as well, sometimes I can't control them, but I've been trying lately, because I've learnt that I can't blow up with the people that love me. But is a long road, and I'm not there yet)
I have reasons and also the right to get angry and snipe at someone, I'm human!
I'm not saying it's all right, 'coz is not really. But can't they see that they are also not very nice sometimes?
Can't they see that the actions they do can be misinterpret?
Do they know they're rude?
Can they even acknowledge that maybe they did something to set me off in a bad moment?
I don't like to call names, so I won't. I'm not even sure they read this anymore. They don't seem to.
I'm sure, if that person reads this still, she'll know I'm talking about her, and she might even blame it on me, saying I'm also being rude, that I'm being distant or that I'm disapointing her because I'm reading things that aren't true.
Well, I'm sorry, but you're causing me to think that.
I can't keep holding this anymore, hoping that you'll change. Maybe you actually suffer from something, maybe is not your fault. But you can't blame it on something else forever.
I'm annoyed.
I'm not someone's dog to be there when they snap their fingers. I'm not there at the hour they need me to be there because I have things to do. If they want to think I'm lying to avoid them, fine by me. But I'm sick that things are always on their rules, their time and when they fucking want to.
Two can play a game, and I'm also tired to be the one who always listens, I know I'm a good listener, people tell me that often. But they never listen to me, or they just say... "oh yeah, how nice..."
Sometimes my life is just about school. My frustrations or joys are about school, and I'm sorry if they don't want to listen about it, or if they don't want to hear it because they get depressed. But is the only life I have right now, school, that's all I talk mostly. I don't work and I usually don't have other problems.
I just need to talk, even if I get a loved one upset (yet again, because lately, all we've been doing is fighting), but maybe this is the only way to work out things.
We are going downhills, eventually we'll hit bottom.
And then, we can only go up.
That is, if we keep on talking and saying things open to each other.
Because seriously, if we keep up like this we might get to a point of no return.
And I don't want that, as angry or upset I might be I don't want a good relationship to end just because of a stupid fight.
If you want to say what annoys you about me say it, don't expect me to just accept it quietly, but say it. I want to say things to you too, and they might be things that other people have told you, things that have made you angry before because you keep saying they're not true.
But, that many people can't be wrong. Maybe, maybe, there is a tiny bit that is true.
We need to talk, really talk.
But I'm also tired to be the one that has to make the phone call all the time. I'm tired of excuses, even if they are true.
You can't expect me to do everything always.
I'm sorry, I needed to take this out of my system.
I'm stressed out, tired and somehow sad too.
I need holidays.
( ESPAÑOL )
- Location:trying to cope with everything...
- Mood:
... - Music:Screams in my head.
And then actually realize that you're doing a exam that you didn't even know you were doing that day?
Something similar happend to me.
I was so, so sure my German exam was on Thursday that I didn't even had my book yesterday to study. Instead I focused on studying for French.
And today, my German teacher came into the classroom and the conversation was something like:
Perla (German teacher).- Hallo! There was a lot of traffic today, sorry I'm late.
Me.- Hallo, no problem.
Perla.- Have you finished the excercises in the book?
Me.- Not yet, but I made the presentation (gives it to Perla).
Perla.- Perfect. Well, I'll be back in a sec, I'll get your exam.
Me.- O_o What?
Perla.- You're exam...
Me.- Today?
Perla.- Yes
Me.- O_o
Perla.- You can study while I come back
Me.- O_o
And so I studied like crazy in five minutes. Fortunatelly the lessons weren't complicated, I hope I did it ok and I hope I'll pass. Tomorrow is the oral part.
And tomorrow is the listening in French.
Then I have all weekend to study for Spanish Language History...
I want this to end now, I'm tired.
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¿Alguna vez se han ido a la escuela, no particularmente contentos proque tienen examen, pero relativamente calmado porque creen que a las 7 de la mañana sólo tendrán clase?
¿Y luego se han dado cuenta de que van a hacer un examen que ni siquiera sabían que harían ese día?
Algo semejante me pasó hoy.
Estaba segura, segurísima de que mi examen de Alemán era el jueves, así que ni siquiera me llevé mi cuaderno ayer para estudiar. Al contrario, me enfoqué en estudiar para Francés.
Y hoy, mi maestra de Alemán entró en el salón y la conversación fue más o menos así:
Perla (maestra de Alemán).- Hallo! Había mucho tráfico hoy, perdona la tardanza.
Me.- Hallo, no hay problema.
Perla.- ¿Ya terminaste los ejercicios del libro?
Me.- Todavía no, pero hice la presentación (se la da a Perla).
Perla.- Perfecto. Bueno, regreso en un segundo, voy a traer tu examen.
Me.- O_o ¿Qué?
Perla.- Tu examen...
Me.- ¿Hoy?
Perla.- Sí.
Me.- O_o
Perla.- Puedes estudiar en lo que regreso.
Me.- O_o
Y estudié como loca en cinco minutos. Afortundamente las lecciones no eran complicadas, espero que me haya ido bien y espero pasar. Mañana es la parte oral.
Y mañana es el auditivo de Francés.
Luego tengo todo el fin de semana para estudiar Historia de la Lengua española.
Quiero que esto acabe, estoy cansada.
- Location:wanting, longing to be in my bed
- Mood:
sleepy - Music:"You are my world" The Communards
I have my French oral, phonetics test and writing exam (which is an essay obviously).
Argh.
Wednesday I have the rest of the French test, that actually makes me nervous.
Thursday I have all the German exam and the other writing one (there's one in spanish and one in english, so that adds up to 2 essays).
Then monday Spanish language history exam and that's it.
I hate exams, I really do.
But well, I can't stress out, I need to repeat my mantra to myself.
I love my career, I love my career...
And so on.
The only good thing is that tomorrow I'm going to visit a friend that I haven't seen in a long time.
So that's it.
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Mañana empiezo con exámenes... maldita universidad.
Tengo mi oral de Francés, examen de fonética y el de redacción (que es un ensayo por supuesto).
Argh.
Miércoles tengo el resto del examen de Francés, ese de hecho me tiene nerviosa.
Jueves tengo todo el examen de Alemán y el otro de redacción (es uno en español y uno en inglés, lo que nos da un bello total de dos ensayos).
Luego el lunes tengo examen de la lengua e historia española y eso es todo.
Odio los exámenes, de veras.
Pero bueno, no debo estresarme, necesito repetirme mi mantra.
Amo mi carrera, amo mi carrera...
Y así.
Lo único bueno es que mañana voy a ver a un amigo que no he visto en mucho tiempo.
Eso es todo.
- Location:ahhhhhhhh
- Mood:
fuuuuuuuck - Music:"Cosa más bella" Eros Ramazotti
(Maybe I'm exagerating, I don't hate it, just the grammar... and orthography...)
I have new teacher now, she's French, but she's very nice to us. She doesn't yell that much.
She told us to write up our projects for the future for tomorrow.
And that she wanted a well structured paper, not something from basic level.
Although we're still pretty basic, not that much... but well... we're not perfect yet.
So... I need to think this over, because I wrote up something and only turned to be about 10 lines long.
Too short.
I need to make it longer and more descriptive.
Or she's gonna murder me.
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Tengo que escribir en Francés... ¿ya he mencionado cuando odio el Francés en estos momentos?
(Okey, tal vez esté exagerando, no lo odio, sólo la gramática... y la ortografía...)
Tengo una maestra nueva ahora, es francesa, pero es muy amable con nosotros. Y no grita tanto.
Nos dijo que escribieramos nuestros proyectos a futuro para mañana.
Y que quería un papel bien estructurado, no algo de básico.
Aunque aún estamos un poco bajos, no tanto... pero bueno... todavía no somos perfectos.
Así que... necesito pensarmelo, porque escribí algo y resultó ser de unas 10 líneas.
Demasiado corto.
Tengo que hacer algo más largo y más descriptivo.
O me va a matar.
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Je doit écrire en francais... J'avais dit déjà que je déteste beaucoup le francais maintenant?
(Je suis exagerée, je ne le deteste pas, seulement la grammaire... et l'ortographe...)
J'ai une nouvelle proffeseur maintenant, elle est francaise, mais elle est très aimable avec nous. Et elle ne crie pas beaucoup.
Elle nous a dit qu'on doit faire un écrit avec nos projets pour le futur, pour demain.
Et elle veut un papier bien structure, pas de niveaux basique.
Bien que nous sommes d'un niveau basique encore, bon pas beaucoup... mais... nous ne sommes pas parfaits encore.
Donc... je doit penser bien, parce que j'ai écrit quelque chose, mais sulement de 10 lignes.
Très court.
Je doit faire quelque chose plus longue... et descriptif.
Ou elle va me tue.
- Location:in my brain, sorting out languages
- Mood:
can't think... - Music:"Señor Juez" Ricardo Arjona
Ok, I passed French, and I'm pretty sure I passed German as well.
But... my God... my writting is really bad, in French I mean.
I hate French.
I've never liked it, and now is sure I won't like it anymore than I did before.
I really need to do something to improve it, otherwise I'm gonna fail as I keep going further and further.
So... I need to write in French.
Maybe I'll send e-mails to my ex-boss, she knows French, maybe she can help out with the writting part.
I hope so.
Well, gotta go.
I'm going to drink something with my mum 'cause I have about 2 hours free.
Be happy.
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Okey, pasé Francés, y estoy segura de que pasé Alemán también.
Pero... Dios mío... mi escritura está mal, en Francés vamos.
Odio el Francés.
Nunca me ha gustado, y ahora es seguro que no me va a gustar más que antes.
De verdad necesito hacer algo para mejorarlo, de lo contrario, voy a reprobar conforme siga avanzando.
Así que... necesito escribir en Francés.
Tal vez le mande e-mails a mi ex-jefa, ella sabe Francés, tal vez me pueda ayudar con la escritura.
Espero.
Bueno, debo irme.
Voy a tomarme algo con mi madre, porque tengo como 2 horas libres.
Sean felices.
- Location:en la escuela.
- Mood:
frío... mucho frío. - Music:"Comme ils disent" Lara Fabian
I have about 5 for this quarter... so far. They could be more any minute.
And we have a bit of a problem with a teacher, although I rather not discuss this, I'm really not in the mood and it's not worth it.
I need to concentrate, work hard and get three presentations done tomorrow. One is ready, the other one is going to be split up tomorrow (we're 4 so it shouldn't be long), and the other one is already split up, we just need to make sure everybody understands everything
I'm tired... really tired.
I feel as if my brain can't hold more information...
Thank God the week is almost over. And the good news is that, tomorrow, I get out at 11.
No more staying until 3 o'clock.
And that's it.
I have tons of books to read yet again. They never seem to finish, at this rate I'll never be done with "Lasher" and "The Historian".
Bl**d* university...
Gotta go, need to read something about... I don't even know.
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Odio las exposiciones, de verdad. Es demasiado trabajo, mucho que leer, preparar... las odio.
Tengo como 5 este cuatrimestre... hasta ahora. Podrían ser más en cualquier momento.
Y tenemos un pequeño problema con una maestra, aunque prefiero no discutirlo, no estoy de humor y no vale la pena.
Necesito concentrarme, trabajar duro y tener tres presentaciones hechas mañana. Una ya está, la otra será repartida mañana (somos cuatro, así que no debe ser largo), y la otra ya está repartida, solo hay que ver que nadie tenga dudas.
Estoy cansada... muy cansada.
Siento que mi cerebro ya no puede almacenar más información...
Gracias Dios, la semana casi ha terminado. Y las buenas noticias son que mañana salgo a las 11.
Ya no me quedo hasta las 3.
Y eso es todo.
Tengo muchos libros que leer de nuevo. Parecen no terminar nunca, a este paso no voy a acabar "Lasher" ni "La Historiadora".
M-ld-t- universidad...
Debo irme, necesito leer sobre... ni siquiera sé.
- Location:Anywhere, as long as the day has 30 hours...
- Mood:
rushed - Music:"Les rois du monde" Romeo y Julieta
German was good, this 1-D I got a 89, because I have troubles with the verbs in perfect. I can't learn them all yet.
I will.
And French, I got a bit stupid in the oral part. And the listening one was chaos, so I got 85.
Everyone has ups and downs. I'll do better next time.
I'll study harder.
Tomorrow is the last day of the quarter. I'll receive my last grade and on monday I'll start the third quarter.
Gosh. Time just keeps flying, if feels like just yesterday I started my carreer. And now, 4 more months and I'll complete my first year.
I'm starting to believe that this is gonna just fly by.
Tomorrow I'll be doing my first translations.
Day after tomorrow I'll be doing my thesis.
And next week I'll be graduating and looking for a job.
Gosh!
Can someone slow down time... please?
- Location:limbo...
- Mood:
thinking hard... - Music:"Walking in the air" Chloe
I'm gonna kill someone.
A she.
To be more accurate... my new german teacher.
ARGH!
I know people have their own accent when talking. I have mine... which is a weird one... nevertheless.
She doesn't know how to pronunciate words correctly. So far, I've heard 3 mistakes. And all her "t's" are very weird too... but if I count those... I would never finish.
She is a good teacher though. Her class is okay, the grammar is good... but the pronunciation.
ARGH!
If there's one thing that gets on my nerves is bad pronunciation. I just can't stand it. And my coordinator seems to think I'm paranoid...
As I said...
I'm gonna murder her.
Just that, needed to get it out of my system.
- Location:ARGH!
- Mood:
bitchy - Music:"Hey there Delila" Simple White T's
I went today to "San Jerónimo" to do some ice skating for the first time in my life. My cousin knows how to do it so I figured I'd give it a try.
It was so much fun. Is not that hard actually (just when you gain speed... because I couldn't figure how to stop). If you had done some skating with normal skates you should be fine ^^.
Anyway... I was so scared at the begining. I thought I would fall down or something, and so I was very slow, trying to grasp the concept of moving my feet without loosing my own balance (and trying to avoid the other skaters...)
And in about thirty minutes I could go a bit faster, I could skate a bit better and I enjoyed myself so much ^^.
My cousin even helped me out to go faster every now and then, he would hold my hand and start gaining speed with me behind him...
I only fell once, and because I was holding my balance until a boy came behind me and made me loose control, I tried to grab him but I fell XD.
No big deal though. My wrist hurts a little, but I'll be fine tomorrow.
I want to do it again!
(I'm extremely happy ^^, I never thought I would do it so quickly, I figured it would be harder).
One more thing I can cross out of my list of "Things to do before I die"
Have a wonderful weekend people.
(I know I will, I have a party tomorrow ^^).
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Me encantó ^^.
Hoy fui a patinar a San Jerónimo por primera vez en mi vida. Mi primo sabe cómo, así que pensé en intentarlo.
Fue tan divertido, no es tan difícil (solo cuando agarran velocidad... porque no podía adivinar cómo pararme). Pero si han patinado en línea con patines normales no hay problema ^^.
Bueno... estaba aterrada al inicio. Pensé que me iba a caer o algo así que iba muy lento, tratando de agarrarle la onda a cómo mover los pies sin perder el equilibrio (y tratando de evitar a los otros patinadores...) Y en unos treinta minutos ya podía ir más rápido, podía patinar un poco mejor y me divertí como loca ^^.
Incluso, mi primo me ayudó a ir un poco más rápido de vez en cuando, me agarraba de la mano y empezaba a ganar velocidad conmigo ahí detrás...
Sólo me caí una vez, y eso porque ya estaba recuperando el equilibrio cuando un chico me apareció por atrás y me desconcentró, traté de agarrarlo pero me caí XD.
Nada serio. Mi muñeca me duele un poco, pero estaré bien mañana.
¡Quiero hacerlo otra vez!
(Estoy sumamente feliz ^^, nunca pensé que podría hacerlo tan rápido, pensé que sería más difícil).
Una cosa más que puedo tachar de mi lista "Cosas que hacer antes de morir".
Tengan un excelente fin de semana.
(Sé que yo lo tendré, tengo fiesta mañana ^^).
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NOTA AGREGADA:
Esta porquería me la borró. No voy a poner todo otra vez. Sólo lo básico.
Estaba viendo las noticias hace rato, estaban entrevistando al Decano de Catedral.
Pero abajo, apareció "Dean de Catedral" y la reportera repitió la dichosa palabra.
¿Alguien puede decirme que está mal?
...
La palabra "Dean" no existe en español, es una palabra del inglés y no debería estar metida en las noticias, mucho menos si existe la palabra "Decano".
Sólo necesitan saber que casi me infarto (sí, como estudiante de Idioma, ya me molestan ésas cosas).
El caso es, que acabo de mandar un correo electrónico a Televisa.
Porque esto no tiene que pasar.
Mucho menos si se supone que son profesionales.
Si los demás países defienden su idioma a capa y espada ¿por qué ch-ng-d-s nosotros dejamos que nos metan extranjerismos por todos lados sin quejarnos?
Idiotas.
Y luego por qué me dan ganas de matarlos.
- Location:In my own happy place
- Mood:
againagainagain... - Music:"Pushing me away" Linkin Park
Thursday: Grammar pre-test (so that we know how the real exam is going to be...)
Friday: German exam of vocabulary (about... 50 words probably...)
French presentation - Wicked ^^ (the only good thing)
Next week...
Tuesday: Grammar exam...
Wednesday: Language exams start...
Thursday: More language exams...
Friday: Results...
When?... how?
I just started this course! How is it that I'm having language exams next week?
Time flies.
And I keep asking... how is it that I keep moving on with German when I don't understand a word?
This is a mistery to me.
I never know how I answer my exams.
'Coz usually I don't understand them.
(My japanese tests was a lot of symbols I had no idea how to read... and I solved it. Wrong surely...)
The mistery of the universe.
Still.
When?... how?
( ESPAÑOL )
- Location:"my psicosis"
- Mood:
shoot... - Music:"Improvisada" Ricardo Arjona
Don't get excited, it's nothing... normal contest. I have the story already and I just need to send it.
But... sometimes I wonder what if I had gotten into a different career?
(Yes, I'm going to rant again... you can run)
There are days in which I amaze myself at the things I can come up with to make a story.
Somedays I wonderf if I actually wrote that or that because I simply can't remember, as if I was on a differente state of mind at the time.
I don't know. Sometimes I wish I were studying Literature.
But then I think again that Languages is the best thing in the world... that I wouldn't change it for anything.
And I keep coming and going... maybe I'm going insane...
And today we went to the IPN's Planetarium, we saw "Stars of the pharaos" and "Black holes" it was great and you should go if you can.
Anyway, I saw in a window "Diploma course in Astronomy" (for those of you who don't live in Mexico I should explain that Diploma courses are offered by mexican universities, you take them for various months. They aren't part of a career, they're more to have updates or to specialize in certain topics, and you don't get a title for it, just a diploma)
Anyway, I thought that was really great... and then I realized that I could do that with writing. Instead of looking for a career, I could take Diploma courses.
Also with History (I still like it... I still want to study it, but not the whole).
I'll stop ranting now... I'll translate tomorrow.
- Location:in my brain... thinking.
- Mood:
pensive - Music:"Mojado" Ricardo Arjona
I've been doing something of Grammar I'm not sure it's correct... (bl**dy language). And I've been writing something, but I'm to tired to think straight so I've stopped. Otherwise, I'm gonna make something stupid.
I had French exam yesterday, and another one today. Both oral. It wasn't so bad really, just some pronunciation issues.
Tomorrow is the writting part, that scares the hell out of me. Mostly because I have ortographic problems (keep missing "e", sometimes conjugated verbs are wrong, and articles...). So I just hope I'll pass tomorrow, I know I'm not that bad... but I could make something moronic.
There's also German test tomorrow. I'm also scared, but that doesn't worries me so much, anyway, no one else know better German than I do, so... no problem there ^^.
Last saturday I went bowling with my japanese group (teacher included).
It was so much fun! Last time I did it was when I was about... 14, with my family. So I really enjoyed myself. I made 1 strike (or however it's called) and well... I would love to do it again.
('coz the original plan was to go ice skating, but the skating rink was closed because there was a championship of hockey... and we ended up bowling instead).
That's pretty much it.
I'm too tired to keep on writing...
And I still have to make my German presentation (God knows how, 'coz I don't know anything...)
Good night.
Sleep tight.
Don't let the bed bugs bite ^^.
( ESPAÑOL )
- Location:en los brazos de Morfeo
- Mood: not here anymore
- Music:"Foundations" Kate Nash
Pourquoi j'ai fait ça? Je ne comprend pas... Merde... (3)
Okay, I'l stop swearing in another laguange... it's obviously going nowhere.
So... I did a very stupid thing last friday. I had this French homework about completing something, and I just read the instructions quickly and did it how I wanted.
Eventually I didn't notice that the answers had numbers according to a drawing... I actually ignored the drawing.
Today I got my homework back and I almost had a stroke right in the classroom.
All the answers were gramatically correct, but they didn't corresponde to the numbers.
And I got everything wrong because of that.
I'm an idiot...
I'm terribly frustrated because I don't tend to do this kind of things.
But then... not everyone is perfect, we all have our bad days an we become idiots.
It's so not funny.
I got a bit down I must admit, because well... I know this is not me, but I've been tired so lately that I'm afraid I haven't been paying attention at a 100%.
That would explain a lot really.
I guess I just need to sleep a bit earlier for a couple days.
At least I know one thing.
THIS WILL NEVER HAPPEN TO ME AGAIN.
I'll read everything more carefully now, I know.
"The trick is not to fall down, but to know how to get up".
Life must go on...
And yes, I know I must look like a psycho... I don't expecto you to understand this crisis... I don't think I understand it myself...
( ESPAÑOL )
Translations:
(1) I'm a real idiot / Soy una verdadera bestia.
(2) Bad / Mal
(3) Why did I do that? I don't understand... Damn... / ¿Por qué hize eso? No lo entiendo... Maldición.
- Location:ARGHHHHHHH
- Mood:
angry - Music:Más gritos desesperados...
Grrrr...
Okay, maybe I should explain this further. I decided to clean up my room (not all of it, just a part). And I thought... I'll start by getting rid of my dolls.
So I put them down and I started getting them in their original boxes (the ones who actually had one), and the others in a big box, so that I put them in the highest part of my closet.
It took me all morning and part of the afternoon (too many dolls).
And now my rooms looks more empty, which means more space for books ^^.
Je suis fatiguée...
This is why I hate cleaning...
Worst part is that I still have the rest of the room to go.
Merde...
( ESPAÑOL )
- Location:en el piso... muerta.
- Mood: très fatiguée
- Music:"Kaze ni naritai" D.N. Angel OST
It's normal I know... yet it's frustrating.
Because... I'm starting to write music with k (as in german...) or I simply forget a word in spanish but I do know the meaning in french. Or I want to construct sentences in german with my head thinking in french before realizing I need to think more in english...
(Example: In spanish and french when you want to say your age, you use the verb "have" "Tengo 21 años", "J'ai 21 ans"... in english you use the verb "to be" "I'm 21 years old". Well, I was supposed to make the sentence in german... and I was like... "I don't know the verb "have" how am I suppose to construct this" and I kept thinking and thinking and I was just about to ask the teacher the verb "have" when, suddenly, it strucked me that the construction was like english instead of french, and that I had to use "to be" "Ich bin 21 Jahre alt"... I wanted to bang my head against the wall..." And yes, I'm aware that probably none of you see the problem here, you may even think I'm insane... but normaly, this kind of existencial crisis are only understandable by people with the same career as you, or doing the same stuff as you... is like me trying to understand the beauty in maths... it's simply impossible, I won't even see a problem with solving problems... and most of you won't see my trauma here... and if you do see it... (I mean, the problem is obvious, I'm confusing one language with another, but the problem goes deep into gramatical structures) then you probably understand why I keep complaining about languages... and yet, why I keep studying them...)
I don't know what I'm saying anymore.
Is just things that I need to get out of my system. I know it sounds as if I've gone insane... maybe some of you are thinking "well, then stop thinking in french", but is not that easy... the brain has a whole different process than the one my will has.
So people, if you want to learn languages... don't, under any circumstances, learn more than 2 at the same time.
And yes, I can hear some of you saying "Oh but you do it..." Let me explain that.
There's people that have a gift for maths.
There're others who have a gift for drawing.
Others have a talent for writing (I'll include myself in that one, even when, sometimes, I can't write a single word...)
But... there are also people like us... who have a gift for languages.
Is not just like "Oh if you know english you can translate" That is not true. Behind translation there's a theory that goes beyond knowing the language.
You need Linguistics, Grammar, Semiotics, Writting, Theory of Translation... lots of things besides the language.
And a hell of a dictionary.
Point is... some people can't learn a language, not everybody can. There's people who will never speak english because their brains don't process it.
There are other who will learn it on a basic level, but they won't go any further...
And there's the freaks like us who learn even the stuff we don't need to know... like ancient english, and "knigth talk"...
I can learn 3 languages at the same time because my brain actually process them. Yes, I get confused, that's normal, perfectly normal actually. If I'm learning french my brain will remember spanish. If I start german my mind will remember french because is the last language registered on it... it's a process.
But I still get both correct. I'll even get japanese right...
But... if I didn't have the ability... I wouldn't, because my brain will explode or something...
I don't know what I'm saying anymore.
I'm ranting...
(Also... I've understood that I can't change anyone. It's in human nature to keep trying to fix others, but the thing is that no one can, and it's really tiring to do it becuse it's a lost battle since the begining. So, instead of trying to fix someone to my ideas of "good" I've decided to accept all that comes as it is, and just try to keep quiet if I don't agree with something, because in the end, is not my life... I can't keep telling people what to do with their lifes because I won't live the consequences either.
Is not that I haven't realized this before... is just that I still had some hopes on changing the world... but I keep getting dissapointments because nothing happens as I hoped they did... and it's worthless.
Life is too short to bother with this stuff. Life should be about enjoying. About letting different thoughts run wild, embrace them, understand them and, eventually, if we agree go along and if we don't... let them go)
I'm too tired to translate all this...
But I should... because if I don't my cat won't be able to read this...
Maybe she will... maybe she won't...
And any way... I want her to know what I say... keeping secrets is bad.
Is not good for the soul.
( ESPAÑOL )
Ok... I think I've corrected all the mistakes... but I don't promise anything...
Okey... creo que he corregido todos los errores... pero no prometo nada...
- Location:los desvaríos de mi mente.
- Mood: ... dead
- Music:"Kimi to deatte kara" Atsushi Miyazawa
OMG!
Bl**dy German. I knew it would be kinda hard.
But this is ridiculous.
One thing is to have complicated pronunciations, I have no problem with that (after all the nasal stuff...)
But that the sound doesn't even exist...
Grrr...
I've been fighting two classes with it and I still don't get it right. It'll probably take a while, but this is ridiculous.
Also, sometimes, when I'm speaking... I have the feeling that I don't understand a word I'm saying. Because in English I already know that I means "yo" and in Japanese Watashi has also the same connotation. Even in French I've grown use to the Je... but every time I start Ich... I feel I'm speaking mandarin instead of German.
I have no idea what I'm asking or saying. I takes me a while to even process what the teacher just asked us.
It's getting on my nerves. And I know this will be solved with time... but I've never had this problem with any other language (and yes, I know that with French is hard to get that problem because the language seems like spanish sometimes... is not so weird... and I know that with Japanese it took me about a year to get used to it... but I don't know... maybe is just that my humour hasn't been in its best... I'll give it some time).
Okey I just needed to get this out of my system
And no, I'm not translating. Go get a dictionary, my hands are numb. It's fr*ck*ng cold in here.
- Location:argh... $&/$#"@!
- Mood: argh
- Music:the silence of my swearing
Yes, it's way too obvious, otherwise I wouldn't be posting about every day... or at least every 3 days.
So... nothing new really.
I watched Howl's Moving Castle (great movie, wonderful drawings, marvelous story... enchanting all in all, I ran out of adjectives...). I love that movie, is one of my favourites, the story is impecable and it keeps me hooked until midnight ^^.
I've also been watching the X-files (borrowed from my uncle of course), they're scary, I can't watch them in the night because then I don't get any sleep at all. But I love them, and watching Mulder crying is just priceless (happy girl).
Also, for those of you who don't know, this is the story of my computer, becauser I mentioned it in the last post but I didn't give any details.
About 2, 3 months ago... my messenger started failing (the one of hotmail). Everytime I logged in my computer restarted itself, I took the machine to fix it and apparently everything went well.
And then, the bl**dy machine started doing the same all over again, so for the moment I have no msn, I haven't logged in and well... it's driving me insane, because I love to chat on the msn.
Nevertheless that's not so interesting, let's move on.
I've been writing again (woojoo).
I have 3 scences of a whole new story.
And I have like 4 pages of a new one... so I think I'll be writing during the holidays as much as I can before I lose my Muse again.
What else have I done?
...
I think that's just about it.
Have a nice day people.
Smile.
Be happy.
( ESPAÑOL )
- Location:en casita
- Mood:
in pain, don't need to know - Music:"Superfly" Curtis Mayfield
